I am aware that my physical well being (1) is unbalance. I'm constantly feeling tired that I have no motivation to getting things done as I have them prioritize. Then I would rush myself at the last minute getting my school work done. For as long as I remember, I never had breakfast or lunch, towards the end of the day I would stuff myself and go to sleep on a full stomach. Even though I hate doing it, I could not change my habit. Ever since my lay off, I have been sleeping late and would not wake up until late afternoon. I keep telling myself I need to loose this weight by summer but keep holding off on exercising. The more weight I gain the more miserable and irritated I become.
I have the thoughts of wanting to get involve with the community and helping others, but like always my spiritual well being (3) does not give me enough inspiration to make me take any actions upon accomplishing theses goals. I remember once when I was a teenager, I volunteered at a church for the foods on wheel charity. We would deliver hot meals to homeless people, even through rainy days. By doing that I had the sense of happiness and wholeness.
Through these chaotic time, I would give myself a 5 on psychological well being. From the last treatment I had back in 2007 for depression, I have not had any nervous breakdown yet and I'm refusing to take any medications. At some points my depression would get so bad that crazy thoughts would float around in my head. Yes, even though I'm aware of this I still refuse further treatment. Everything that I do now, I'm reflecting it upon my kids. After my divorce, they are all I got, so they are my medicine towards healing.
My goals so far for these aspects are as follow: slim down by summer and be more energetic; have more selective healthy foods; be more motivated and supportive; become a volunteer at one of the local hospital; and get involve with the community more often. To move toward these goals, I plan on joining the YMCA along with my children or start using the treadmill 3 times a day. I will change my eating and sleeping habits. I should implement some relaxation techniques and stress management methods to raise my self esteem higher and maintain positivity. I honestly believe I can achieve these goals once I get myself on the right track.
Hello Hatsady,
ReplyDeleteI have to say I've been there girl! I mean I struggle with it daily my thoughts, my anger, my inner dark side, I too don't take medication but thats because I refuse to take any medications that makes me numb and that just gets me by the day. I don't believe in that sort of treatment. I have to meditate and exercise to release the stress and the anger, but for the mental and the spirit I have a new found friend who helps me direct my energy into positive energy and redirects some of the lost energy I have into the direction I can best use it. If it weren't for my good friend and message therapist I would be lost. I really would he listens to what I say and sometimes when I don't. He is a true friend, so selfless and genuine, He brought me too tears the other day.. tears of joy because I didn't know people could be so nice, and willing to help. I think you can't get over eager or to ambitious thats what sets us up for failure. So the fact that you are going to join the YMCA is a positive goal for all aspects its got community, it works on health, and its wellness. if you don't get on that treadmill 3 times a day its OK, don't limit yourself with numbers. I find joining a group class is better because you meet new people you form a connection if only for one hour you are engaged in a class with people there all working on there fitness and wellbeing just like you. And you will find better results when you go regularly you may find a workout friend one to keep you on track, one who will save you a bike in spin class, and that will get your step out for step class. So think only good can come from this intention, and it will be but don't be afraid, and don't limit yourself because then you may never see or realize what it's truly all about and thats the best you! Good Luck!
Rox
Good Evening
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing! That is what you should tell yourself everyday...along with you are happy healthy and strong! I read you words and just felt how hard you are trying to get back on track and that is so admirable. So many times we have a turn in the road that makes us wonder if we are doing the right things or on the right path. It's these times we should reflect on how far we have come and how blessed we are. I can remember after my heart failure I asked would I rather be dead or alive and I said ALIVE...and with that sometimes comes what we see or feel as troubles, pains, struggles...but these I promise you are opportunities to become the greatness that we are inside... the us that came here to conquer this flesh prision world.I always remind myself that I am not my body...I am a spiritual being having a physical experience....
Remember no one can make us feel as bad as we make ourselves feel and the opposite holds true as well...no one can make US feel as good as we can make ourselves feel...
As for you goals, I think that you are on the right track, remember to set realistic goals, start small and finish BIG!
Jamillah~
I have ridden your train many times. There were times when I got off and took the time to look around but I always seemed to end up back on that train again. Then one day I asked myself why. Food is a comfort. When we don't have anyone to talk to or when we don't want to talk to anyone we usually turn to food. I am guilty of this. In fact, I was raised like this. Wanting to get involved in your community is a good idea because it will provide you with a social support system that you might not have previously had. It will allow your children to take part in their community and doing that with mom is even better. Keep your chin up! Good times are ahead for you and your kids. Remember, we are all here for you. Don't hesitate to contact us when you need us. Take care of yourself and remember "If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it."
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you need to find a person or group that could inspire you. I could give you a lot of information and try to motivate you but if you do not take the step off the couch then it would not matter what I say. I am hopping that this class and the responses people give you will help motivate you. I understand feeling tired and not having the energy to get up and workout but once you start you will find energy. Its funny but the more we work out the more energy we will have.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes to you.